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Sleepless nights

Sat, 27 Oct 2012 07:06:35 -0400

Another sleepless night. My mind is racing i wake up in the middle of the night around two or three. I just wish my mind would just let me sleep in peace. I havent had a good nights asleep probably since high school and ive been out for three years. I cant stop worrying about the near future and whats going to happen to me. I pray to god that everything is going to turn out to be okay i am putting my trust in him. I have faith. Sometimes when i wake up in the middle of the night i turn my music on and turn it all the way up and just think about stuff and then i try to go back to bed seeing if that cleared my mind sometimes that works, but it doesnt. I dont know how to handle this situation, but im going to leave it up to him up there to help me find sleep again. Ive try to take nyquil to help me sleep but that just doesnt help me either i thought it would nock me out but it didnt. Yesterday probably was on of the wors days ive had. I couldnt stop thinking about the bad things that were happening to me. Everthing was just falling apart for me, stuff keeps on happening to me, and i dont know why. I take on step forward and i just keep on getting pushed backwards. I just gotta keep on pushing throught this and fight.

redcherie730: live,dream,love

Thu, 25 Oct 2012 06:38:13 -0400

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Freedom

Mon, 22 Oct 2012 00:01:00 -0400

At last I feel free, my heart feels happy again. I actually have something to smile about. I thank God for making me free again, and for helping me find my way again. This summer took the time to find myself, and to figure out what i want to do with my life and i know that ive messed up in the past but Ive overcome most of my past. There’s some stuff that i still need to work on, but all i know is that i am a different person that i was a year ago. I got rid of my facebook whitch was the most amazing idea ever. After the drama that went on i felt like that was it for me and facebook. The internet site does nothing but ruin people’s life. Thats were all the bullying goes down and i was once a part of that. So safe to say facebook is not needed in my life people talk about nothing. You find out way too much on there, and I also got tired of seeing my so called friends mock me about loving jesus. Well guess what that most definetly didnt stop me from loving him. He is the reason i am the person i am today. If it wasnt for him i would still being out drinking and smoking and doing the whole nine yards, but im not because he saved me and he never fails. When i feel like being weak he makes me strong. He has tought me how to fight temptation when i want to go out and party i ask him if thats a good idea and he tells me no before that i would go agenst him and do whatever but the after math wasnt good. I felt quilty,gross,sad. Partying was me weakness it was the devil telling me that i should do this and that, and everything would be ok well guess what it wasnt. I truly believe that jesus will always be there no matter what you do he will fight for you. He will be there when no one eles is. This summer probably was one of the best summer i have had in a long time. I spent most of my time a capital christian met some great people became pretty good friends with most of them, they made me feel so welcome and made me feel like i could be myself and not that person that needs to rage all the time. I am truly thankful that God helped me find that path again. I had some rough times here and there but God was ALWAYS there telling me that i dont need to do this and that he has kept me strong. His promises mean more than anything. Love never fails when it comes to him. For all the people there who are strugling in finding you way give all of yourself to God and trust in him. He never fails. At one time i lost my faith in him because something didnt go my way, but then i saw it as in no God has something better for me. The one thing i need to learn is to be patient with him i am very impatient person, but i am learning. Just because God doesnt answer your prayer right away doesnt mean he wont later. I read this book called “Do yourself a favor and forgive” by joyce mayer. I believe that book made me forgive when i told myself i would never forgive that person for what they did to me, but something told me that i should be the bigger person and get in contact with those people and sit down and put it out on the table and i did. I felt free after that. It also talked about anger ive been holding in alot of anger and i dont know why and that book tought me how its a waste of time to be angry about something you can fix on your own. I still have along adventure ahead of me, and i cant wait to see what God brings me!

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Mon, 27 Aug 2012 01:25:48 -0400

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Mon, 27 Aug 2012 01:15:23 -0400

More of Jesus!

Mon, 27 Aug 2012 01:08:03 -0400

More of Jesus!

Summer 2012

Fri, 01 Jun 2012 20:52:15 -0400

This summer has been amazing so far i could not be any happier with everything that is happening. I went camping for the memorial day weekend that was crazy, but i was totally over it after the first day and i was staying there for two days but i still ended up having fun! it rained, and hailed i was super annoyed but thank god my other cousin had a cabian not too far from the camp site so i ended up going up there and kicking it with my cousins and theyre friends, but the next day i had too return to the camp site which was no biggie but i was ready to do home! that was the longest day of my life. I went off roading for the first time that crap jacked up my neck but it was super fun i would totally do that again, then i shot some guns for the first time i was super nervous but i got use to it! i would totally do that again too! memorial day i went boating with my friend ali i havent been boating since i was like 13 i had a great time! stayed out in the sun and got three shades darker haha. Life is slowly falling into place and i am happy about it, but there’s some stuff that is missing and i cant not quite figure out what it is hopefully god will help me find out what is missing from my life! summer has only begun! there is more to come and i can not wait! :) LGLP!

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Wed, 23 May 2012 18:45:12 -0400

Dance the Summer nights away. Live in the moment make memories...

Wed, 23 May 2012 18:43:00 -0400

Dance the Summer nights away. Live in the moment make memories that will be talked about for ever! surround yourself with people you love and make you feel happy.

Found Light again

Tue, 22 May 2012 21:12:50 -0400

I havent been on tumblr in about a year i think. I totally forgot i had one, but anways life is good i found god again which i am happy. I needed him in my life again he came when i was stuck in a rut, going down the wrong path. I got rid of the negative people in life that was much needed made new friends. I stopped the partying and drinking i was just wasnt happy at the time when i was sitting there abusing it and that wasnt the way to go. To the people out there who drink their problems away its really not worth it find something eles to solve your problems like workout or write your feelings out on paper. I just recently started a journal and i feel better about it! it helps me from saying hurtful things to people or lashing out, but i run to god and ask him what should i do in this situation and he always answers me. Ive lost friends along the way because i love jesus christ oh well guess they weren’t really my friends apparently,they are losing out. I have made new friends along the way and they are awesome they make me feel good about myself my last ones not so much all they wanted to do is gossip and drink and smoke weed yeah thats not the way to live life honestly and god showed me that it wasnt and i thank him for that. Im still going through some phases but i know god is going to help through this and show me that right way, and my friends that are still with me. I am excited about the future and for its goin to bring me. LOVE GOD LOVE PEOPLE! <3 :) Keep the faith!

The streets of san fran

Mon, 21 Nov 2011 04:52:38 -0500

The streets of san fran

Forgive and forget

Mon, 21 Nov 2011 04:49:06 -0500

Forgive and forget thoes who have put me down too many times I mean its hard,but you gotta move on with your life thoes people are doing you no good they are trying to hold you back from what you want to do in the future. They obviously can’t handle being your friend. I’ve learned that the ones who make through thick&thin with you are the true ones the ones who don’t make it didn’t make it because all they wanted to do is put you down or find ways to, or they just didn’t really care about you enough to stick it out and deal with your flaws or your mistakes ect ect.

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Wed, 16 Nov 2011 17:40:28 -0500

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Wed, 16 Nov 2011 17:39:37 -0500

My life be like this! :)

Wed, 16 Nov 2011 17:26:50 -0500

My life be like this! :)

Trust

Mon, 14 Nov 2011 17:22:40 -0500

Trust is something that everyone takes advantage of every day. with me trust doesnt come easy i just dont give it out to anyone i grew up with people betraying me, but who hasnt. My trust is a privagle i just dont hand it out to anyone. i know many and trust a few but in order to trust someone you have to trust yourself first and im not so sure if i fully trust myself im still trien to find myself in all the madness. im sure one day i will but not any time soon there’s no rush. trust no one!

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Sun, 13 Nov 2011 16:32:41 -0500

I give my heart to you and whatd u do with you break it I show that I care for you and whatd u do you push me away I give you a second or even more and all you do is keep showing me all the reason not to anymore. I don’t know what to do anymore! We argue and fight and five minutes later we’re back to being good. I’m lost!

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Sat, 12 Nov 2011 23:44:10 -0500

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